gentleg1nger:
Journal Entry for Goddess #1
I think tonight was the longest time I had been without orgasm. Consecutively. Boy, that really fucks with your head. Puts you in a different mind set. The first week is difficult too, because when I was first getting used to it, it really made me only think about my cage and how horny I was. Honestly it just amplifies sexuality and libido at first, which is torturous. It’s really hard to ignore that metal, the coldness of it, the reality that I am missing my normal sensations and pleasure. Before, masturbating was a daily routine. Now that the quick release, once a day, is gone, I found myself initially aching for any kind of sensation.
After the first week though, the feeling subsides a bit. Enough to control focus and thought in other directions rather than my pleasure. Definitely focused more on submission as well. Not my own gratification but the gratification of My Goddess. And also, filing time with other tasks and entertainment. But when it comes to sexual gratification, the intense feeling of week one is amplified into a few moments of attention to my cage. Whenever I noticed it, sexually, it tore me apart with lust and desire. Being so aroused all in a single moment is so torturous and difficult. It’s like taking a week’s worth of teasing with no cage and compressing it all into that single moment. Such painful bliss is divine.
However, day 17: orgasm. Holy. Fucking. Shit. Profanity doesn’t give it justice. The sensation is heavenly. It’s bliss. But also, over, too quickly. Fleeting. Desperate and hasty. But oh so incredible. Overall, conflicting. My Goddess, drove me to the edge and pushed me into orgasm, head first, and it was incredible. So well worth the wait. I can’t wait to see how much further this goes, with @teasefordays and I!
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Ohhhh my darling boy. You are divine. Thank you for the entry.